bogus.. hmph



the hong kong observatory always gives us false hopes that a typhoon 8 is coming. all this hype yesterday, but when these things see hk - they always turn away!!!! i guess it's a good thing. for one, i get to come to work and go to meetings. for two (???), it's probably better for the safety of everyone in hk, and that, is a blessing!

had a tough 15 hours. last night, just before leaving the office, there was some company-internal issues regarding compliance and clearance of some information before we could disemminate to clients. i had issue w/the 'report' - and basically threw a mild temper tandrum. it wasn't really one of those blow steam out the ears, cuss in 10 languages, arms in the air, foam at the mouth and spit flying everywhere deals. more like the i-don't-wanna-take-any-crap-from-them mentality and if-they-have-issues-they-can-come-to-me [cuz i'm big hairy and ugly and loud> sorta thing]. wasn't quite the righteous flip the tables and kick out the hawkers anger that m'man JC exhibited.

after a nite of prayer with the boys, a conversation w/the wife, and review of my masterlife discipleship book where we were just studying forgiveness, i came in determined to make amends. it'd be funny to stop there and say... 'but i didn't CUZ I WAS RIGHT, HAHAHAHA!!!' (which i still think i AM... HMPF!!). however, the point is: regarding the technicalities of the situation - maybe i was RIGHT. regarding attitude - eh.. could be better?.... no crif, it was just PLAIN WRONG!

so i talked w/the compliance lady this morning, and apologized, which she was like.. 'for what'??? (she wasn't even around when i went postal)... so i told her cuz i am crap at my submissions, and sorry for causing extra work. then i went to the lady in my department and told her that my comments were off based and didn't mean to direct them at her (or anybody), and my attitude was way outta line. she understood, and said no offense taken, and she 'understood'.

wat did i learn? well - not so tuff to actually apologize and ask forgiveness, so why don't i do it more often?? it heals the rifts and actually makes everybody able to be more productive, which was the initial aim of this 'compliance report'... wat's more important is not even elevating the emotional levels to get to that point of disruption! i mean - one thing we learned as a disciple is that in the belt of truth, you have to master your emotions - not to let any circumstance overcome your attitude and witness!

basically, it's like this dumb typhoon. you can see the storm coming - but just bend it like HK!!!!! storms brew up in my life all the time. i just need to deflect the storm so that it doesn't affect my attitude. it doesn't mean completely disregard the situation, but rather see the storm, acknowledge it, but address the issues head on w/the right attitude (and thereby deflecting the powers of the storm!). there will be strong winds and maybe rain, but i'm still a disciple... and a discipler. i could moan, complain, cuss, be angry, be self-righteous... but no - i should choose to be a light, and speak life into situations!

well - i'm still at work. typhoon 3 is a farce. typhoon 8 is a pipedream. and my afternoon meetings are very much reality...