introspect

the past few weeks has been a time of getting away from everything and finding out about me me and me. it's been great just being able to get away from the life that's become pretty systematic and instead broaden the horizon a bit. it's also been a time where i can sorta make a status check, as the new year approaches, and i once again get to evaluate myself, where i've been the past year, and where i wanna be headed. i've had such a blessed year, as in all the past 3-4 years, that there really isn't anything to complain about.

it was good to finally be able to go to plus the past 2 weeks after not being there for the previous 5 or so. time is flying by so quick, and that thief in the nite just stole 5 weeks of fellowship - thief disguised as work, that is. i don't really mind tho, cause i'm loving it - i'm loving feeling stupider each day as i stuggle to understand how i'm going about getting a day's work done. i'm loving the fact that for once in my life, i'm in so clueless as to what is ahead in life, a position where i'm in no position to plan any part of my future. it's a much different viewpoint from that of complete apathy. i do care about what's up ahead. after all, the bible does say 'forgetting what is behind, and straining toward what is ahead, i press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.' that's the catch... what is the 'the goal', and how to press on ahead?

so that brings me back to square one. wondering if i'm in the right place. wondering if my eyes are focused. and wondering if i'm 'pressing' in the right direction. it's a wonder what a few hours on the golf course can do for a person. does this mean i'm gonna make drastic changes? change jobs? move church? expand my reach? i doubt i would change jobs.. i love it too much. church? well.. that still remains to be seen... but definitely gotta expand the reach. seems that there's such a strong sense of complacency that's hit - and it's fairly evident. gotta remember that this is a [long] race, not a sprint.

ain't a life not knowing anything great???

... Christmas coming up.. New Years... fun n fellowship... wat's not to like?

upcoming events:

dec 18 - plus dinner @ crc
dec 20 - 180 xmas dinner @ gig
dec 31 - new years eve party!!!